FALLING STAR: The Songs of Ben Schwartzman

MY APOLOGY 

I was living life like a dream 
Dreams can seem a lot like life sometimes 
My soul starts bursting at the seams 
Please don’t ever speak of my crimes 
That wasn’t me 
That was just part of me 
My apology 

Everything in life is perceived 
Why does everything all seem the same? 
Another mother tries to conceive 
While murdered children remain without a name 
How can she love? 
She cannot love 
My apology 

And it all comes round full circle 
In the end 
In the end 
What goes around comes around 
What goes around comes around 
What goes around comes around 
And goes and goes and goes 

— 

BIG MAN 

Big man up in the sky 
When is my time to die? 
Could it be tomorrow? 

Keymaster open the door 
Well I’m sittin’ here waitin’ for more 
But it’s all been locked away – ay- ay – ay 

Is this the time to get old? 
And is this the time to break the mold? 
Well I’ve been feeling awfully fine 
And I’m thinking that it’s the time 
To step outside the lines and be free 

I didn’t think that it would be this way 
Underestimated what they’d say 
Does it get any better? 

I took the back roads a couple of times 
And ended up at the starting line 
Which way leads me home 

Is this the time to get old? 
And is this the time to break the mold? 
Well I’ve been feeling awfully fine 
And I’m thinking that it’s the time 
To step outside the lines and be free 

Is this the time to get old? 
And is this the time to break the mold? 
Well I’ve been feeling awfully fine 
And I’m thinking that it’s the time 
To step outside the lines and be free 

— 

LET ME GO 

Talk soft, breathe deep 
Let me go back to sleep 
I am a falling star 
Burning bright wherever you are 

Well, I was wrong and you were right 
Now I can’t sleep at night 
I was wrong and you were right 
Now I can’t sleep at night 

Take me by surprise 
Let me help you close your eyes 
Try to understand 
I'm doing the best I possibly can 

Well I was wrong, and you were right 
Now I can’t sleep at night 
I was wrong and you were right 
Now I can’t sleep at night 

People are dying just to live 
Well I am living just to die 
Take me home, make me yours 
I will never make you cry 
Ooh, yeah 
Talk soft 
Breathe deep 
Let me go 

— 

WHICH WAY TO HARLEM? (A Little Bit of Love) 

“Which way to Harlem?” 

Just a dream just the other day 
Let it get away 
Baby now I don’t know where to stop 
Tripped real hard got 
Some bruises and some scars 
Man I never should of let it drop 

I wanna waste some time 
Let me get a rip of that bowl 
Ease my mind, I wanna free my soul 
Have no fear, death is just the start 
One thing’s clear, everyone’s got a heart 

Everyone’s got a little bit of love 
Everyone’s got a little bit of love 
Just a little bit of love 
Just a little bit, a little bit, a little bit of love 

Speakin’ lies all the time 
Never punished for their crimes 
Man life just isn’t fair 
Thousands are dead 
Every day blood is shed 
But I really don’t think they care 

I wanna waste some time 
Let me get a rip of that bowl 
Ease my mind, I wanna free my soul 
Have no fear, death is just the start 
One thing’s clear, everyone’s got a heart 

Everyone’s got a little bit of love 
Everyone’s got a little bit of love 
Just a little bit of love 
Just a little bit, a little bit, a little bit of love 

I wanna waste some time 
Let me get a rip of that bowl 
Ease my mind, I wanna free my soul 
Have no fear, death is just the start 
One thing’s clear, everyone’s got a heart 

Everyone’s got a little bit of love 
Everyone’s got a little bit of love 
Just a little bit of love 
Just a little bit, a little bit, a little bit of love. 

— 

DOWN THIS ROAD 

Take me by the hand 
And we’ll go somewhere new 
Try to relax and free your mind 
Trust me for I am gentle and I am kind 

Here we go down this road 
Where we gonna end up 
I don’t know 

Yahoo, yahoo 
Yahoo, yahoo 

Kiss me once 
Kiss me twice 
Your lovin’ touch is oh so nice 
I feel nothin’ but love for you 
And I know you feel the same way too 

Here we go down this road 
Where we gonna end up 
I don’t know 

Yahoo, yahoo 
Yahoo, yahoo 

— 

FOUR 

So much that’s not all good 
I can’t make it right and I wish I could 
Travel back to a time 
When I didn’t even know how to rhyme 

I wish that I was four 
Not even tall enough to ring the doorbell 
I wish that I was four 
Maybe then things could be alright 

Maybe if I wasn’t such a pain 
Maybe my parents could still be sane 
But I know it’s not my fault 
The cut is open 
and they’re pouring in the salt 

I wish that I was four 
Not even tall enough to ring the doorbell 
I wish that I was four 
Maybe then things could be alright 

Thank God I have such good friends 
Ones that’ll listen and try to lend 
A helping hand if I need one 
And I really think that I could use one 

I wish that I was four 
Not even tall enough to ring the doorbell 
I wish that I was four 
Maybe then things could be alright 

I wish that I was four 
Not even tall enough to ring the doorbell 
I wish that I was four 
Maybe then things could be alright 

— 

FREAKIN’ 

Freakin', tweakin', fallin' 
Crying, weeping all the time 
But when I’m done I’m okay 

Runnin’, fleein’, bobbin’ 
weavin', fallin', crawlin' 
Dodged another bullet again today 

I’m wastin’ all my time feelin low 
I’m so lost in life 
Where do I go? 

Junkie flunky tryin' 
cryin’, stupid cupid 
Arrows flyin’ all around 

Just another desperate brother 
Tryin’ to do your best to cover 
Up that horrible sound 
Livings the hardest part of life 
Spread open those wings 
and try to take flight 

Instigated, fluctuated, 
overrated, masturbated 
Head of the state 
Chokin’ on his words of wisdom 
Practicin’ Neo-Nazism 
Isn’t life just great? 

How can you make peace by starting wars? 
It’s time we started opening other doors 
It’s time we started opening 
It’s time we started opening 
It’s time we started opening 
Other doors 

— 

RIGHT THROUGH YOUR LIES 

It's getting late and I don’t know where you’ve been 
The look on your face like you’ve committed a sin 

You can’t even look right into my eyes 
Cause I can see right through your lies 
Cause I can see right through your lies 

(One, two, three, go!) 

Cause I can see right through your lies 
Yes I can see right through your lies 

Walking in smelling like his cologne 
I can tell it is not my own 

You can’t even look into my eyes 
Cause I can see right through lies 
Cause I can see right through lies 

Yes I can see right through your lies 
Yes I can see right through your lies 

— 

RUNNER 

Brown hair, blue eyes and a pale face 
Brown hair, blue eyes and a pale face 
If only I could find the words to say 
Maybe I wouldn’t be so lost 
For her 

I’m so lost for her 
Oh, oh, oh 
Runnin’ around, nowhere to be found 
She’s runnin’ all around 
and she can't be found 

I wanna catch up to you 
I wanna get to you 
I wanna get to you 
Please slow down 

She’s runnin’ so far, she’s runnin’ so far 
She’s runnin so far away 
She’s runnin’ so far, she’s runnin’ so far 
She’s runnin so far away 
She’s runnin’ so far, she’s runnin’ so far 
She’s runnin so far away 
She’s runnin’ so far, she’s runnin’ so far 
She’s runnin so far away 

And when I get to you 
I’m gonna make you mine 
Oh, oh 

Yeah she’s runnin’ so far, 
she’s runnin’ so far 
She’s runnin so far away 
She’s runnin’ so far, she’s runnin’ so far 
She’s runnin so far away 
Ohhh, ohhh, ohhhh 

— 

ONE LIFE 

Well I should tell you 
That life is such a precious thing to waste 
And I should tell you 
This world is not a perfect place 
But you gotta try and make it better 
You gotta try and make it better all the time 

But you can’t sit back, you gotta try and be free 
Open your eyes, open your eyes 
And you will see yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 

You’ve only got one life to live 
And you’ve only got one life to give 
And don’t believe in anyone’s lies 
You can always see right in their eyes 

Let me tell you about this girl 
That I saw the other day 
Let me tell you I looked at her 
But she wouldn’t look my way 

But you gotta try and make it better 
You gotta try and make it better all the time 
But you can’t sit back you gotta try and be free 
Open your eyes, open your eyes 
And you will see yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 

You’ve only got one life to live 
And you’ve only got one life to give 
And don’t believe in anyone’s lies 
You can always see right in their eyes 

Sometimes I feel like the world sits on my shoulders 
Sometimes I feel like the world sits on my shoulders 
Sometimes I feel like the world sits on my shoulders 
Sometimes I feel like the world sits on my shoulders 

You’ve only got one life to live 
And you’ve only got one life to give 
And don’t believe in anyone’s lies 
You can always see right in their eyes 

— 

LIVE BEFORE YOU DIE [Live] 

How high should I go 
Before the sky’s not blue? 

How far should I go 
To try and be with you? 

How many songs should I sing 
Just to make you feel high? 

You gotta live before you die 
And to live you must fly 
You gotta live before you die 
So fly away with me 

When I wake up in the morning 
Sunshine’s so bright 

When it’s dark outside 
I see your face in the moonlight 

There’s so much love in this world 
Enough for you and I 

You gotta live before you die 
And to live you must fly 
You gotta live before you die 
So fly away with me 

—

YOUR CHOICE 
words & music by Hayley Schwartzman 

As each passes by, I ask myself 
Who am I? 
As each night comes along, 
I think I can't, oh I know I can't move on. 
Everything seems to be moving so fast, 
I feel like I'm stuck inside 
the shadows of my past. 
I don't have faith in anything anymore. 
Only pain and sorrow 
Is what I can count on for tomorrow. 
And it hurts me to say, but there are days 
Where I feel so much anger 
towards you and your pain. 
Tainted memories are all that remain 
I know you didn't want this, 
Regardless, it was your choice. 
They say they understand. 
Have you been in my mind? No you haven't been. 
And I shake from the fear, 
That I'll never see you again. 
I waste all of my time, just thinking, just thinking 
I think about it all. 
But no matter how many times 
I shout out your name 
You wont answer my call. 
And I hate to admit it 
But I know you didn't mean it 
When you said Hayley I love you 
And I'll never leave 
Your actions speak louder - which do I believe? 
I know you didn't want this 
Regardless, it was your choice. 
I know you didn't want this 
REGARDLESS, I STILL LOVE YOU